Burgers are good for you.

Today, I was challenged while I sitting alone overhead, people watching as they ambled around getting dinner.

Are you ready to embrace a legacy that is far greater than yourself? One that will live on?

I wanted to say yes. But I couldn't.

And then I realised why I haven't been able to see -couldn't, wasn't allowed to- see the future that's laying in wait for me to take a hold of.

Because if I were to see it now, I'll seize it, take control of it, say yes to it, for all the wrong reasons.

And I don't want to say yes to it- I want to say yes to the Person who gave it.

And I couldn't say yes... well, because to say yes to something that is so completely bigger than yourself, you stare at the enormity of it, and know that there is no chance at all that you can do it by yourself- independence is not even an option on my mind.

The only chance I have to not just survive, but to thrive, to be wholehearted and to enjoy it wholeheartedly, requires only one thing. My total, absolute, complete dependence.

That kicks up the question to a whole new level. Yes is no longer a word I can take lightly. Yes can no longer be half-hearted. Yes will be a commitment, a desire, a cry of my heart, that no one else can fulfill, or will fulfill, besides the One that will bring me through it.

I have stopped straddling between the exhilaration and adrenaline versus the fear of the unknown. I have started running in the right direction.

Not ready to say it. But wanting to say it.

I want to say yes.

Lead me, with strong hands.